Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Another Taste of Time for Tenderness

Tony crossed the room and sat on the ottoman directly in front of her.  He leaned forward and clasped her hands in his.  Hers were trembling.  For a moment, he just sat there, watching the light rise and fall of her breasts as she refused to look at him.  Her scent was intoxicating and an all-too-familiar neediness spread through him.  It made him sick to know that she was still having such a difficult response to him.  Didn’t she know that this relationship she insisted upon was driving him insane with loneliness and longing?  Hadn’t he done all he could over the years to prove his devotion to her?  He leaned forward and kissed her gently on the forehead.  On the cheek.  On the side of her throat where that pulse was beating wildly.  He heard a small sigh escape her as his lips traveled lower, to her collarbone, and then brushed against a thin chain she was wearing beneath her tee shirt.
Suddenly, Val jerked away from him, her eyes wide with panic, her arms guardedly hugging her stomach.
“Val?”  Her body was trembling slightly.  Why?  What the hell was wrong?  Tony stared at her as his mind raced over those past few minutes trying to figure out what he had done.
“Tony, please leave,” came out as little more than a whisper, a desperate plea.
And then he figured it out.  He reached over and pulled the chain from beneath her top.  A filigree ring dangled from it, the pinkie ring he had bought in memory of their first Valentine’s Day.  The swirling heart design was unmistakable.  He tilted her chin up, forcing her to look at him.  He wanted her to see the confusion that was wracking his thoughts. 
“You don’t wear it where anyone can see it, but you haven’t broken your promise, have you?” he asked bitterly.  No answer.  “Have you?” he demanded.
“No,” she admitted faintly.  “I haven’t broken my promise.”  She closed her eyes for a moment to keep the tears of fear and humiliation from spilling over.  Outside of moving it from her hand to this chain, or removing it on rare occasions, wearing his ring was a promise she had made and kept; and her loyalty betrayed her.
 “Then why have you forced us to be apart?  You treat me like you don’t even want to be in the same room with me; and yet, you still wear my ring?  I don’t understand, Val.”  His confusion was fading and Tony was angry.  He was hurt.  He stood and stepped away from the hassock to keep from grabbing her shoulders and shaking some sense into the situation. 
“I don’t want to do this right now.”
“Alright,” he conceded.  “When?”  Valerie just shook her head and closed her eyes, blocking out the sight of his eyes expressing a myriad of feelings she did not want to see.  She could feel him staring at her and sense the depth of his frustration.  A few minutes later, she heard the soft click of the front door closing and sighed in relief.
The living room was decorated in soothing tones of blues and purples and magentas with large-leafed tropical plants in front of the picture window.  The sun shone into that room for most of the afternoon, making it a calming space.  But as soon as Tony left, it felt icy and empty.  Likewise, coldness crept into the pit of Valerie’s stomach and she couldn’t stop herself from shivering. 
A showdown was coming – soon.  One she had been avoiding for three years.  Well, Tony had finally found ammunition to force her hand.  He’d left tonight, but that meant nothing.   It was clear she had run out of time.  

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